One of the hardest parts of adopting has got to be leaving my girls for an unknown period of time (at least 2-3 weeks for the first trip). This is just so very hard for my heart. Another adoptive family so perfectly compared leaving their children at home to the Lost Sheep Parable:
Mila has been extra snuggly and clingy and only wanting mama the past couple of days. She KNOWS something is up. Try as I might, I could not pull this one over her :( My girls have such an amazing sense of empathy that they can always tell when we're stressed, or when change is brewing. Zoya will likely party it up while we're gone and love all the extra visitors. Zoya has come SO FAR in a year. Last year when we left for Mila I had all those same feelings about her that I now have about Mila. Mila on the other hand, I just don't know how she'll do. Shawn has his worrying out of the way and now it's my turn from now until we get to the airport to have those panicked feelings about leaving the girls. Let's face it, we're not just driving down the road to go miniature golfing (not sure where I pulled that comparison out of?)....anyways....we're going to be nearly 5,000 miles away. We have no choice but to trust in God because ultimately He is their protector whether we are here or not.
The Great Uncle Mike (who escorted Mila and I home) and Aunt Carol are the lead caregivers while we're gone! It made me laugh when they said that their motto is, "Well everyone should do something once a year that scares the hell outta them!" They're going to have SO much fun and we know they'll love our girls to pieces while we're gone:) Uncle Bub and Aunt Corrine are coming up to do weekend duty and give Uncle Mike and Aunt Carol a break. We also have some super fabulous friends who will be coming to help in the mornings, taking Zoya to school, and picking her up! We are so very blessed with all of the people who stepped up and offered to help care for our girls while we are gone!
With all that behind me now, I can honestly say I am READY to get on that plane on Monday. I am READY to meet our Curlie Girlie. I'm ready for it to be HER TURN to know what it feels like to have a mama and daddy.....to know what it feels like to be loved. I am ready to take her in my arms and kiss her cheekies and look into her eyes and tell her she has been FOUND! I am ready to experience the miracle that happens to one's heart when they become a parent to another child. Just when you think you can't love any more, your heart uncovers the most super secret perfect little hideaway place. I can't wait to watch our third daughter unlock that special hidden place in our hearts! <3
"Which of you men, if you had one hundred sheep, and lost one of them, wouldn't leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness, and go after the one that was lost, until he found it? When he has found it, he carries it on his shoulders, rejoicing. When he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, 'Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep which was lost!'"
(Luke 15:3-6)
Mila has been extra snuggly and clingy and only wanting mama the past couple of days. She KNOWS something is up. Try as I might, I could not pull this one over her :( My girls have such an amazing sense of empathy that they can always tell when we're stressed, or when change is brewing. Zoya will likely party it up while we're gone and love all the extra visitors. Zoya has come SO FAR in a year. Last year when we left for Mila I had all those same feelings about her that I now have about Mila. Mila on the other hand, I just don't know how she'll do. Shawn has his worrying out of the way and now it's my turn from now until we get to the airport to have those panicked feelings about leaving the girls. Let's face it, we're not just driving down the road to go miniature golfing (not sure where I pulled that comparison out of?)....anyways....we're going to be nearly 5,000 miles away. We have no choice but to trust in God because ultimately He is their protector whether we are here or not.
The Great Uncle Mike (who escorted Mila and I home) and Aunt Carol are the lead caregivers while we're gone! It made me laugh when they said that their motto is, "Well everyone should do something once a year that scares the hell outta them!" They're going to have SO much fun and we know they'll love our girls to pieces while we're gone:) Uncle Bub and Aunt Corrine are coming up to do weekend duty and give Uncle Mike and Aunt Carol a break. We also have some super fabulous friends who will be coming to help in the mornings, taking Zoya to school, and picking her up! We are so very blessed with all of the people who stepped up and offered to help care for our girls while we are gone!
With all that behind me now, I can honestly say I am READY to get on that plane on Monday. I am READY to meet our Curlie Girlie. I'm ready for it to be HER TURN to know what it feels like to have a mama and daddy.....to know what it feels like to be loved. I am ready to take her in my arms and kiss her cheekies and look into her eyes and tell her she has been FOUND! I am ready to experience the miracle that happens to one's heart when they become a parent to another child. Just when you think you can't love any more, your heart uncovers the most super secret perfect little hideaway place. I can't wait to watch our third daughter unlock that special hidden place in our hearts! <3
Praying for you all!
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This was a huge help to me today. Only one thing scares me about our up-coming adoption, and that is leaving my kids behind for weeks. I needed the reminder that God is in control and "we need to do something that scares the hell out of us" ;) !
ReplyDeleteSo so hard, but so worth it!!!
DeletePraying for you guys, that His traveling mercies will cover you and bring you back quickly and safely and that the girls will be at peace and have fun with their relatives and friends until mama and daddy get back to them! Hugs and prayers, Lori P.S. Happy Thanksgiving!!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine how hard that must be. Good thing you have some great people to help you.
ReplyDelete2 days! I can't wait to see you with your new daughter.... For some reason I have a feeling this little girls story is going to be very interesting when you decide to tell the entire story behind how you "found" Zofia..... I have a story line running in my head and I SO SO hope that it is what I think it is! Can't wait for an update and Im upping the $5 a blog to $10 when you are in country :) Happy travels
ReplyDeleteWonder what you're thinking? haha! Aww you're so sweet to double your donations! Thank you so so so much!!!!
DeleteI don't want to say it out loud... or cyber space in case I am totally wrong! I feel like I have seen Zofia's face in another child. That's all I am going to say. :)
DeleteONLY 2 MORE SLEEPS!!!! I know that you must be feeling such a mixed sense of anxiety and elation (mostly elation since we know God can handle all of the anxiety you can throw at him!!)!! I am feeling such a sense of anticipation myself and am thrilled to be following your adoption journey once again! Know that we've got you in unceasing prayer as well as Curlie Girlie for what she is about to discover - LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! May all of your hearts be in unity for what God has intended for a very long time!! (((BIG BIG HUGS))) as you travel and meet your girl!!!!
ReplyDeleteSo so excited! Although I'll admit at 3am I was having some major anxiety! Off to collect some toys to take with us :) I still need to start packing!!!!!!!! eeek!
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