Sunday, July 10, 2011

Changed Hearts

I'm thinking our announcement to adopt might take some people by surprise. After all, I was surprised myself! I wouldn't know how long God has laid this adoption on my heart because I didn't really want to hear what he had to say to me about adopting again. Shawn and I were perfectly content with our one-child-life. Things had finally settled into a new normal and a nice comfortable routine with the addition of Zoya just over a year ago. We were starting to get into the swing of things and starting to focus somewhat selfishly on our wants. Adoption is messy and hard and costly and we wanted easy and comfortable. Several months ago I had a one-way conversation with God. It went like this....."God if you call us to adopt again I'm going to have to say 'no thanks' I trust you fully and everything, but we're just not ready for all of that again..." As I recall that conversation I picture God laughing because He knew all along that we'd be beginning this journey only months after our little "conversation."

About two months ago, Shawn, Zoya and I went for a bike ride. As I rode behind them I thanked God for blessing me so greatly with such a wonderful husband and amazing daughter...I had such a full heart as I thanked him.  I've not been sure many times about hearing God's voice, but on that day, I heard Him say "I can bless you again if you let me." Later that night I told Shawn about it because it kind of freaked me out!

And remember THIS POST about the two four leaf clovers? I still tried not to think much of the meaning of the second clover even after some commented about the second clover representing a sibling.

Suddenly I started hearing that little whisper and I continued to ignore it as best I could.

In what seemed to me, one fell swoop, we were staring at our second daughter on a computer screen! Our hearts LITERALLY changed before we could understand what was happening. Isn't God just good like that? We went from perfectly content, to wanting and needing this angel and ready to do anything to bring her home. Life is short. There is a lot I will never understand. But, I'm learning to stop asking so many questions and rely on that tiny mustard seed of faith when I hear that whisper leading toward a path that I'd not typically have ventured toward myself.

Meet Miss Laina Hope

18 comments:

  1. She is SO beautiful! Congratulations to your family. I couldn't WAIT to see who was adopting this precious jewel.

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  2. Oh she's beautiful!!! I followed your journey to Zoya and I am so excited to see you are getting her a sister!! Laina is Beautiful! I just saw you on Reece's Rainbow, I read "Basile family" and I just knew it had to be you! Congratulations!

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  3. She is precious! Won't Zoya make a wonderful big sister!

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  4. Congratulations!!! She is precious.

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  5. There you go ago, continuing to teach this old lady to listen more careful, be more faithful in listening to that whisper.

    I'm so proud to call you a friend. I'm proud of what lessons Zoya is teaching you along the way of trust, love, and her endless zest for life.

    You know that we are in your corner 100%, we will walk with you thru this journey, when you need someone to pick you up and give you both strength don't forget that I'm here.

    Love you all. This little girl is so precious.

    :)

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  6. Sooo wonderful! Congratulations from the Fillmore's!

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  7. Beautiful Laina! I am so happy for your family! xx

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  8. WHAT?!?! -->picking my jaw up off the floor... WOO HOO!!! Beautiful family, I am so very happy for you. Sarah, you are the best mom and Zoya, what a wonderful big sister she is going to be, after all you taught her everything she knows about love...how can she not be wonderful at it!!!

    Thrilled, beyond words you have blessed my heart!!

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  9. Wonderful, brought tears to my eyes! You have SUCH BIG hearts! Congratulations, we are so happy for you :)

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  10. She is so precious! My husband and I are adopting through RR as well, and I kept looking at her sweet little face and hoping that there was a mommy and daddy out there for her. Congratulations!

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  11. YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH!! That is all I am going to say!!!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!

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  12. I followed your journey to Zoya and have continued to follow since then :) I loved Laina picture the moment I saw it and it´s WONDERFUL that youré adopting her - And the name Hope seems to fit her perfectly.

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  13. I'm so happy for you and for beautiful Miss Laina Hope - and for Zoya who will be such a wonderful big sister! Yippeeeee!

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  14. im so very happy!!! :D congrats and cant wait to see Laina with you!

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  15. Congratulations!!! She is beautiful!

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  16. HAPPY ME! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! WHO WANTS A BEACH TRIP?!?!?! :)

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  17. BEAUTIFUL LAINA-GIRL!!! We can not wait to see you safe in your FAMILYs arms!!!
    Love, Christina and family

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  18. I had checked in on this little girl several times and was shocked to see that she was being adopted to the Erie area! I am also from the Erie area! I just posted her info and donation link to my facebook and will do what I can to help through my blog. Many prayers and much love to your family!

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