Anyways, Mila was still pretty warm today but acting more like herself. She is now trying to pull herself away from a leaning position on me (when her back and head are resting on my chest) and lifting her head purposely away to be able to see things in her environment. I couldn't believe I was seeing her do that today! This girl could not even hold her head up well with support and now she is starting to do it all by herself! She is tolerating being held upright for longer and longer. The first week she could not be held upright, she simply couldn't tolerate it because she was so used to laying flat. She looks like such a big girl upright. Some of you have commented that she looks like she is plumping up....I don't think the pictures are deceiving...I really do see a change and she is getting some nice pudge around her cheekies and starting to look less newborn-ish. I truly believe she is gaining weight since we've been here. It is probably partly due to the fact that we take time to feed her the entire bottle and give her breaks to let her digest here and there....but I'm thinking a whole lot of these changes are because Mila has finally experienced what it feels like to be loved and nurtured. I keep asking myself if it's really possible to see all these changes after only 2 weeks of visiting her 3 hours a day. Just three hours a day. It just seems like it can't be that easy but you can't underestimate the power of love. We have a long road ahead of us, of this I'm sure, but seeing so much progress in these last couple of days....oh it gives my heart strength to know that our precious jelly bean is going to be just fine. I truly must have underestimated the power of prayer because seeing her so sick just two days ago to seeing her like this today is truly something only God could have done. I know so many of you have been praying your hearts out, please don't stop! Don't get me wrong my heart still worries sick about her and about leaving her, but I needed this peace. I needed to see Mila's strength that the Lord has given her despite being so fragile. I can't wait to see the personality our little "j.bean" (as one of you so dearly called her) a year from now. God has big plans for this little girl, of that I'm certain.
Can you believe today appeared to be the first day Mila has ever seen outside? We visit every day in this room, but it never crossed our minds maybe she hadn't seen outside before. She was mezmerized just looking out the window. Her eyes were so big and so wide. It was adorable. I bet she will like trees as much as her big sister! I remember when we took Zoya outside for the first time she just stared at the trees in awe...she still loves them to this day!
So this is where she pulled her head away from my chest and totally started checking out the maitenance guy who was trying to fix the broken crib that was in the room. She was staring so intently at him!
Tracking his every move, turning her head all on her own and everything!
Then he started banging REALLY LOUD and she looked to her Daddy for comfort :) I think it's safe to say she didn't like the banging noise! Check out the pouty lip!
She discovered her foot again and started wiggling it like crazy just staring at it in amazement! It was so funny to watch!