Falling In Love

Against my best intentions, I'm falling madly in love with "Harlene" just looking at her picture. I've tried my hardest not to get attached because I don't ever want to experience the pain of loss we experienced with Laina. But it's a slippery slope and I'm sliding fast, falling for this tiny little cherub! I don't even want to publish this post because if something didn't work out with "Harlene" then you'd all know that I'm already attached and I would look foolish.  But, I think I'd be a bigger fool if I didn't realize that all the best things in life happen when you put your full heart into it, knowing all along that the end result could NOT be in your favor. To love fully involves taking a risk, a big risk....hoping that in the end you will be loved back.

“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.” ~Leo Buscaglia



11 days until we embark on this journey!

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  1. JuliOctober 3, 2011 at 10:03 AM

    Let yourself fall...you both deserve it :) Praying for you. The Lord has this, try to enjoy the journey and drop your fears at HIS feet!

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  2. MelissaOctober 3, 2011 at 10:18 AM

    There is no way you could look foolish for falling in love. You just look like a mom! How could we not love our kids?

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  3. AnnaOctober 3, 2011 at 1:38 PM

    I guess that what you´re experiencing is called being normal ;) Harlene is so beautiful (I personally like to think her name/nickname is Dasha) and she´ll no doubt capture your hearts the second you meet her :)

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  4. The Mac's HouseOctober 3, 2011 at 3:17 PM

    Loving a child is never foolish.

    Rejoicing at just the thought of you being able to hold her, it puts a smile on my face.

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  5. Jaclyn MOctober 3, 2011 at 6:35 PM

    Good for you!!!! I am glad you are putting your whole heart into it.... Sometimes a little heart ache is worth the love you got to feel!!! Love, hugs and prayers for safety and a forever love with Harlene!!

    Jaclyn
    http://adoptutah.blogspot.com/

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  6. ChristinaOctober 4, 2011 at 1:49 PM

    Oh YEAH!!! this is soooo TRUE what you write and this is what we experience again and again as we serve "our" babys:
    TO LOVE FULLY INVOLVES TAKING A RISK!!! love the meaningful words from Leo Buscaglia!!!
    Thanks for sharing!
    PRAYING!!!

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