Our First Meeting with Mila Hope
She is TEENY TINY. 0-3 month size easily. She is the size of a newborn but a little longer. She has no chub at all. Her coloring seemed a little blue at times and we could see her chest working hard while she was breathing. We were given mixed information as far as her heart condition. We were told she has "heart disease" and is on medication. They also told us she is too small to have surgery. They said she eats very well but just does not gain weight (makes it seem pretty likely to me that she will need her heart repaird). I asked if she has "hole in heart" which is what they refer to many heart defects as here and they said no just heart disease, so I'm thinking the information was translated incorrectly to us or the nurse was not sure what her heart condition is. The head doctor was not in so we spoke with a nurse, so I'm hoping to get more information from the doctor. She was just over 5 lbs at birth (7 months ago, so she hasn't gained hardly any weight). She is starting to have a little head control and has a tight grip. The nurse said even though she is tiny she is strong and she was right! She has peach fuzz for hair and bright blue eyes.
So other than being a little taken aback by how teeny she really is and her obvious need for medical attention (I mean we knew she needed medical attention but seeing it in person knowing thats our baby girl shook me a little), our hearts just melted when we met her! We are exactly where we are meant to be at this moment in time. I can start to see God's hands all over the timing of this and leading us to Mila. My nickname for her after holding her today is jelly bean! She is very aware of what is going on around her. I got to hold her first and she locked eyes with me, serious starting into my heart and soul. She has the newborn reflex of grabbing onto your finger and I just love it. She loves her Daddy's scruffy face and just kept rubbing it with her little hand. I held her and sang "Jesus Loves Me" trying to hold back the tears and whispered in her ear that her Mama and Dada were here and she would never be alone again.
I have a couple videos but I left my phone at our apartment. We are at Anna and Jerad's apartment because our internet is not working. If you could all be praying for our little jelly bean and her health and safety until she gets home where she belongs. Also, there was a pretty big mix up with our dossiers....half of our dossier got bound (sewn) together with half of Anna and Jerad's dossier. That means at the SDA when they were putting our documents together they took half of ours and half of theirs, sewed them together...so each of us were given our dossiers back to give to our facilitator and it wasn't until we were here we looked at them and realized they messed them up. Apparently this has never happened before....soooo our dossiers are currently on a train back to the capital, hoping to be fixed. This could delay our court date but it might be back in time that it won't matter. Please pray for our dossiers! Good news is we have heat and hot water finally!!!!! Woooot!