The "soap-on-my-toothbrush" kind of tired

We've had a rough few nights since my last post when all was going well! Mila is waking up many times throughout the night just screaming like she is scared or having a nightmare. I'm sure she's reliving her hospital stay :( Prior to her surgery she was a pretty good sleeper and would sleep a stretch of 6-8 hours overnight. The screaming only happens at night and she is still waking up from her short cat naps (about six 20-30-minute naps a day) happy. She is sometimes still asleep while she is screaming but won't stop until she is snuggled, then it starts all over again after we put her down. The past couple of nights she's been wide awak from 1am until 3 or 4am. She is clearly very tired but just fighting sleep. She has also had horrible gas and reflux since her open heart surgery, which they say is normal for 4-6 weeks. I'm so tired that this morning I put hand soap on my toothbrush. I also found myself answering Mickey Mouse's questions on Mickey Mouse Clubhouse because he and I are best buds now. He is the closest to adult interaction I get in a normal day. How old is Mickey Mouse anyways? Yep. I have completely lost it.

For some good news though, Mila is up to 13 pounds 10 ounces!!! She has almost doubled her weight from just over 2 months ago! After surgery when we left the hospital she was 12 pounds 9 ounces, so she has gained almost a pound in 5 days.  She is eating about 6 ounces more per day plus eating 3 tablespoons of rice cereal on top of that. I'm wondering if that is playing into the horrible sleeping....a growth spurt maybe. Either way I just keep telling myself maybe I can sleep when I'm dead. Seriously though, I am a little worried that she isn't getting the sleep she needs so if you could say a little prayer that her quality and quantity of sleep would be better, I'd love ya for it! Her scar looks so fabulous. I will have to post a picture of it as it continues to heal. I just can't get over how good it looks...especially compared to Zoya's! The glue is starting to peel off and some new pink skin is showing through! She seems to be in a little less pain-related to her surgery anyways. She was really sensitive to having her arms moved at all above her head to dress her, but that seems to be passing as well.

Thankfully, Zoya is being so great and taking the role of big sister very seriously. She wants to help so badly all the time. She now runs to the changing table when she sees me there, grabs a diaper, opens it up and spreads it out...so cute. I won't mention how she took all 300 wipes out of the wipe box though.
She loves Mila and is very concerned every time she cries. She even tells me what I should do, like "Mama ssshhh ssshhhhh" or "Mama baba."

We are still on semi-quarantine until we have our follow up appointment in a couple of weeks. 

I will post some pictures when I can see straight!