Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Movin' On Over.....

I finally feel "safe" letting this blog go and blogging solely at Angel Eyes as was my original intention. I wanted to keep this blog open during Mila's mecial journey, and although it's not over, I feel as if the big stuff is behind us (I hope and pray anyways). I'm excited to get back to blogging about non-medical things and life as a family of four. I'm having this blog made into a book (just as I did with Zoya's) so Mila can read all about her adventures when she grows up. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for following along and loving and supporting us and our little jelly bean. (I think her new nickname is going to have to be Cadbury Egg though because girlfriend is getting chunky!) Leaving this blog is bittersweet....mostly just sweet though because it means we're moving on and finally get to just enjoy our Mila girl.....(and complain about more normal things like the lack of sleep!) Dasvidayna!

Please continue following us at Angel Eyes.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Mila's Adoption Video!

It's finally complete.  I'm so glad I took the time to do this. Looking back on it already brings back so many raw emotions. I can hardly believe how tiny and frail and purplish blue she was. Watching this reminds me that God was all over this one. We are so thankful for our Mila-bean! Please listen to the words of the songs as you watch the pictures....they describe our feelings and our journey perfectly! 

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Cardiology Clearance!

Mila had a cardiology appointment today for an echo and checkup to make sure the fluid around her heart is not coming back.  The great news is that there is no fluid around her heart!!! Her pulmonary hypertension is even lower than our last visit, but still present. I had hoped she could be med free after today's appointment, but her liver is still mildly enlarged and just to be safe the cardiologist wants to keep her on the lasix (probably for 6 more months...boo). But she can stop the Ibuprofen...so we're closer to being med free! Mila has gained 2 pounds since our last visit 3 weeks ago!!

We are cleared from cardiology for SIX MONTHS!!!! This both excited me and scared the hell out of me! The good thing about having so many cardiology appointments was that it was pretty reassuring to know the echos were scheduled and I could "see" her heart and hear from the experts that all was okay. If I had worries that something was up or if she was fussier than normal, I always reassured myself that we had an upcoming appointment to see how her heart was doing. I'm pretty confident that we know what signs to look for and we'd probably realize what was happening much sooner this time (from experience), but the thought of no more cardiology appointments and no more echos for six months scares me a little. I tried checking on amazon for an echocardiogram machine but they were just a tad out of our price range. ;)

Zoya was thrilled to hear the good news!

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made









"I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139:14

Friday, February 3, 2012

Mercy and Love

Last night I was going through some of my videos on my phone and I was beside myself seeing some of the videos of Mila from Ukraine. How could I have forgotten already what bad shape she was in? I know in my head she was awfully small and I remember being taken aback when we met her, but seeing some of the videos made my stomach hurt. She looked like a little skeleton...her head way too big for her tiny frame...sticks for legs and arms...oh my. I guess knowing the baby she is now and looking back at some of these videos is just really so very sad to see. It makes me happy to know she has come so far, but seeing the old "form" of my baby girl....she was barely there inside her tiny body. The only window to her soul I can see in many of the videos/pictures are her beautiful eyes....so deep and telling...so aware and knowing.

This video was taken on October 20th, just about 4 months ago:

This video was taken a month later, on November 21st at her doctor's appointment (prior to any of her surgeries):

And this video was taken just two days ago, after 3 surgeries and lots of tender loving care:

Who can dare say God has not performed a miracle here? Our little girl is a living, breathing miracle and a testament of God's mercy and love. Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound!