We are here with another family adopting two little angels. It is such a blessing to share this experience with them! We all sat in the director's office learning some details about our children and then they took us to the therapy room where our girls were waiting for us! When I laid eyes on our angel girl she seriously took my breath away. Shawn got to hold her and snuggle her first and I just stood in awe, almost in disbelief that we were there in that moment physically holding, touching, seeing our daughter for the first time. As I took her into my arms with tears in my eyes I knew in that instant that God created this moment long before I could have ever imagined it to be. I hugged her tight as she rested her head on my shoulder. It was hard to believe I was really finally holding her. I told her I was her mama and Shawn was her papa and we were going to be her family forever. I kissed her cheeks and her head and her fingers and stroked her hair. I felt so undeserving, yet so grateful for such a blessing!
I started singing to her and within moments she was sound asleep, safe in her mama's arms. I just stared at her beautiful doll-like face, kissed her forehead and touched her adorable rain-drop shaped chin. Her hair has a hint of strawberry blonde and her eyebrows and eyelashes are very light in color. Her hair is really curly in the back! She has the longest fingers and feet. She has at least her top front and bottom teeth and possibly some more. Her little mouth is shaped like a heart and she is just precious.
We got to go back again tonight and visit her (this morning's visit was only about 20 minutes). We can visit her any time other than nap time as many times a day as we want! She was more awake tonight although very snugly and cuddly...I won't complain one bit!!!! We did get a smile out of her and lots of dancing when we turned on the iPod! She's definitely checking us out and trying to figure out what is happening. She liked the toys we brought and seems to love music (just like her sisters!). She didn't love the textured carpet we were on but they said she can crawl and she was up on all fours and moving a bit. As we sat and played with her tonight, so many thoughts ran through my mind. So many things about her remind me a lot of Zoya, and so many other things about her remind me a lot of Mila. They will make wonderful sisters! She seemed a bit reserved with us at first during our visit tonight (just like Zoya was) but when we took her back to her groupa (2 hours later) the nanny reached for her and she clung to me. The nanny said, "NO? Hmmph Mama!" And she let me hold her a few minutes longer. It was already so so hard to hand her back over and walk out. That part has been terribly hard each time and as we get to know her better and our bond grows it will become even harder!
I can't emphasize enough that this is NOT about us doing a good deed or being wonderful people. This is about seeing how the Lord is redeeming a child's life AND blessing a family. I hope you read our story and look at our pictures and say "wow what a blessed family" and "they are SO lucky" and "their new daughter will bring them so much joy" instead of, "you guys are amazing" because it's simply not true! We are no more amazing than the rest of you, I promise you that! Thank you for walking beside us for this amazing journey. We are beyond grateful and so very thankful for all of the blessings in our life! Today, I'm still pinching myself wondering, "Is this really real? Can this kind of beauty truly exist and can we truly be the recipient of such a beautiful gift?"